stressed

I am stressed. I haven't been stressed in forever. I just decided to kind of you know, change my life plan. (weird..) I have decided I would much rather go to med school than be a nurse forever. I have thought long and hard about nurse practitioner/ nurse specialist, and they just dont' sound quite as fun. I wish they did sound as fun, because it would be a whole shit ton easier to do that instead of medschool. I want to intubate people, and do thoracentesis..es, and lumbar punctures, and you know, actually think for myself instead of just do something somebody else told me to do. The best job would be if you could just do it all yourself. Like a patient comes in, you diagnose them yourself, figure out what you want to do, and then do it. Too bad the world doesn't work like that. I will miss things about nursing, but if I stay with it forever I will have extreme regret for not at least trying to get into medschool. That's probably why I'm stressed. i keep thinking of other things I would maybe like to do versus that, but I am having difficulty with it. Wangular.
so I have been applying to different schools, mostly in st cloud. That way I can go back and live with my parents, which is free. Yes, I am a loser. and also, Yes it will suck to live with my OCD mom again. But hopefully I will be dying from studying and live at school and not really be at home for anything. Except to hang out with my dog. My dog will keep me sane. She is so much better than a boyfriend. We like the same stuff.... outside, walks, eating, laying, sleeping. Excellent.
For the schools I am applying at it's really hard to get into the classes I want to get into... aka biochem, organic chem, physics, advanced stats, and some sort of advanced bio. class for a review. At scsu there are 4-5 different sections of each class I want to take, and I keep trying to make different combinations, but they keep crashing into eachother's times. I think they just figure that no person is capable of being so stupid that they want to do all of those classes simultaneously. Well, i am that idiot, and I want in!!! I am not going to go to school an extra year because I couldn't get the stupid timing right on my classes. Ridiculous.
I am also really tired right now because I work day shifts for the next 5 days, and before that I worked evening shifts. It shouldnt' be that hard to rotate shifts that are mostly during day hours. But I think it is. My evening schedule is go to bed at 1:30/2AM, get up 9:30 ish Am. The other schedule is go to bed as soon as possible, wake up at 5:45 am. I think I am actually less tired when I work night shifts. Or just as tired. It's the same amount of hours off schedule. I also completely forgot that I had registered the dog for obedience classes, and I have to reschedule those because I keep having to work at the time of the class.
I am also trying to exercise for the triathlons... and I am slow and chubby.. and my quads are burning. booooo.
What else can I complain about?
I hate medicare.
I hate june bugs.
I hate muskies. Plus I heard on the radio today that this year is supposed to be the 'record breaking muskie' year. There are some in lake millacs, milax? milacs... (whatever.) that are over 65 inches long. Mother of god. That is almost the length of my body. I am never swimming in that lake. Ever. (unless of course I felt like commiting suicide.)
I also have to tell my manager that i'm quitting my job. which I'm sure she isn't going to be happy about. (well, maybe she is. .. who knows..)
I also need to clean my house again. I should also go shower. I hate showering.

okay that's all the bitching I'll do for today!! bye!